A Renesmee Story Ch.3
I awoke with the clouds turning a greenish-blue. I remembered everything from last night and the mouring, I was full of shame and regret. I pulled on an old pair of jeans and a pink fuzzy sweatshirt that, thanks to Aunt Alice, hugged every curve. I was starting to show some curve to my girlish figure, which means Aunt Alice will be dragging me to every bra store in the state or country. I took a deep unsteady breath and headed towards the steps. Once I was saftly down the stairs, since I had some of my mothers human clutziness, I looked up. Everyone was looking at me except the ones I needed to see, my fathers. I let a tear roll down my cheak as I turned down a corridor to the study that had a computer.
I turned it on knowing my friends from last year would be on. I signed on and it said "Welcome" on the banner. Nice touch. My username is: OverObsesser101, my best friend who wouldn't pluck me to death for gossip was on she changed here name but I knew her Icon very well it used to be: Purplecow360, because she was a skater and she was known for her 360's at the park. And her favorite animal was a cow and favorite color was purple so there you go. Now it was: Purpledragon183. I was so willing to talk to her right now even though we got in a fight last year.
OverObsesser101: Hey wat's up with the new UN Merissa?
Purpledragon183: Hey! Nothin' much but my new skateboard has a dragon on it and its purple.
OverObsesser101: Then wat's up with the #?
Purpledragon183: HELLO that's the # I had at the state final skate tordiment, which I won.
OverObesser101: Oh yeah, that's right. Sorry family issues.
Purpledragon183: Lay it on me.
OverObsesser101: Got in a fight with my brother and had to bite another.
Purpledragon183: Which one you'd bite?
OverObsesser101: Emmett. And I got in a fight with Edward. He dosn't like me hangin' out around my BF.
Purpledragon183: Mmm Mmm Mmm....Jacob? No one could hate him, or you together, it's like your inseperable.
OverObsesser101: You are so close you don't even know it sister.
Purpledragon183: Opp's parents at 10 o'clock, Bye
Purpledragon183 has logged out.
OverObsesser101 has logged out.
Technically my dad is supposed to be my brother, but I hate sayin' it. I shut it down. It was good to get it off my chest and new worry filled me, what would he think? Is he THAT mad at me? Am I that mad at him? No, well, I couldn't be. He could.
I took a deep breath which was unsteady like the others. I walked out of the room once the computer took it's elderly time to shutdown completly. Then I worked up the nerve to go into the same room as my family. The only pair of eye's that turned to me was my mothers this time. All the others was on the telivision. She mouthed,"Come over here." I shook my head but mouthed, "I'll come closer." which I did only to the back of the couch which I leaned on. Emmett leaned away from me. It was aparrent that no one trusted me. And my freshly composed face diminished into a frown of depression. I worked on composing my feelings, but everytime I did, I saw Jasper, out of the corner of my eye, look at me saddened by the way I feel. Why should he care, I'm the moster. When no one gave interest why I was there I walked out the door to the back porch and to one of my favorite tree's.
The reason why it was my favorite was because it smelled like my Jacob. I let the smell drift me away. I felt every possible run away plan would be useless. Which it was he'd definatly would hear this and be keeping a closer eye on me. So I gave it up and thought about last night, why'd I bit Uncle Em. Why I tried to run away. Why I let tears break me down. It all came to me. "I didn't want anyone to fight over me." I wispered to my self like a question that didn't become voiced. I curled up and cried and for the first time let out helpless sobs. I'd seen people do this when there heartbreaks or when there hurt. And it felt better this way like no one was watching me, like I was alone. Like I could escape the horrid of it all. And finally the tears started to slow and the sobs stopped, and very slowly the tears stopped. I felt better, like the little girl who couldn't cry, cry'd herself out. I wiped my eyes and cheaks from the tear's trails down to my chin. and then I thought I'll have to go in sooner or later.
My brain snapped like a light bulb going on and off. LATER, I thought quickly. And like it was on cue the wind picked up a little breeze and Jacobs scent filled my head. I was exhuasted and I slowly let exhuastion fill the rest of me that didn't have Jacobs scent there and slowly, and thoughtlessly, fell into a dreamless and helpful sleep.
The end...For now...